So you’re on the last straw and you don’t know what to do or where to turn. You find yourself (your sanity and hope, that is) slipping away, but at this point you’re so drained that it doesn’t even matter. Nothing matters…. except that you’ve been damaged by life’s bitter touch and when you look in the mirror that imprint is the only thing you see. You’re broken beyond repair, unfixable….
You, you’ve turned away. You’re as far from the Father as water is to bread….as apples are to oranges. He who was once your only hope, is now the one you hide from. Because you think you’re the only one with demons hiding in your closet….. that no one else has drank from sin’s cup…. that there’s no seat left for you at grace’s table. No one can ever forgive someone who has messed up as many times as you have…. is that it?
And you, you’re practically dying on the inside because you feel incredibly alone, completely unloved, and generally unseen. But you might as well accept your circumstances because you deserve to live that way; it’s your fault that you’re surrounded by people, but have no true friends. Who can ever love someone like you…. right?
I’m not sure where you fit on that spectrum, or if you do at all, but I hope you will find some insight in this post.
It’s easy to get caught up in believing that you are in an unchangeable state, or that your current circumstances are insoluble/definitive of who you are as a person. It’s even easier to convince yourself that you’re the one to blame when life shows you it’s true colors. And more often than not, the world will have you subscribe to the, “fix it yourself,” mentality, which isn’t always healthy, or viable for that matter (think of an alcoholic or drug addict for example).
I’ll change myself, and then they’ll like me….
If I could just force myself to get over my past hurts, or past traumas then maybe they won’t affect me as much….
Everything is crumbling around me, but maybe if I try really hard to be happy it’ll all be okay….
I got myself into situation X, so now I’ve got to get myself out of it….
But here’s the truth, we were never meant to carry our brokenness on our own. That’s why we have a savior.
This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.1 John 4: 9-10
Jesus (the Son) specifically came to save, to give us life, and to carry what was not His, so that we wouldn’t have to. His very name (the Hebrew one, that is), Immanuel (“God with Us”), emphasizes who He is. It means that He knows where you’ve been and understands what you’re going through.
Most of all, it means that He fights for you against all of those things that torment your soul, and seek to destroy you: sin, rejection, abandonment, loneliness, brokenness, self-hate, emptiness, shame, pain…. the list could go on forever. Because He doesn’t recoil from broken things, or abandon the ones who can’t find their way.
And He seeks us out, opening His arms to all who will receive Him.
If you only knew how His heart longs for you to know His love; to know that He can free you from whatever hell you’re in…..
This is what He says,
Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.Matthew 11: 28-30
If you’ve been searching for a way out, this is it.
Because that void you feel…. deep within your chest, there’s no other way to fill it. The drug/alcohol abuse, relationship misuse, destructive behavior, the meaningless sex…. those things are sand, they’ll take you with them as they wash away. But if you let Him, He can shine His light into the darkest, most damaged parts of your heart…. the places even you are afraid to go. Jesus can restore every broken part of your life, and replenish your soul.
This here is your hope sign.
If you’re uncertain about what to do with this, you can start with these words, “Jesus, I believe, and I desperately need you, please take my burdens from me.”
Whisper them, say them out loud, or in your head…. He’ll hear you either way.
And if you’re in a place where you desperately need forgiveness, Jesus is not a “three strikes and you’re out” type of friend, just lay your guilt to the side, confess all that you’ve done, and ask for it with a sincere heart.
I hope you will find peace in knowing that whatever you are battling today (or in the days to come) is no match for the One who died for you, and fights for you.
So knock, and your soul will find rest. Enter, let your heart say yes.
Thanks for reading Xxx